What Light Have You Been Following

For 20 years I followed a light.

A little internal GPS telling me where to go next.

Achieve more. Work harder. Keep moving. Don’t stop.

And then one day, the light switched off.

No warning. No map. No direction.

Just silence.

At first, it felt terrifying. Like I was lost at sea without a compass. Everything that once drove me suddenly meant nothing.

But slowly I realised something:

The light that went out was never really me.

It was conditioning.
Expectation.
Survival.
The need to prove myself.

And when it disappeared, for the first time in my life, I had to stop and ask:

What do I actually want?

Not what impresses people.
Not what looks successful.
Not what keeps me busy.

Me.

Maybe that’s what awakening really is.

Not finding a new light.

But learning how to see in the dark.